heat displacement

something
about the way he looks @ her
these rivits of fire
this flame
and she has no defense against it
splits her down the middle like a scythe
all the blood drains from
her heart 2 the floor
he cuts away all those pieces that died
a little
every day they didnt speak 2 each other
and eye wonder what kind of hold
he has over her…
if he has any control over it @ all
maybe
its this secret only her mother knows
some shrill incident from preschool
the reason she always falls in love
with every man that looks like he does
and doesnt know why,
only her mother remembers
eye can feel her thoughts
how overwhelmed she is
with all the promise of him
how badly she wants 2 think him
2 love him
f%#k him
fight with him
2 bury his shame
and disappointments in her heart
there is this reflection
of his soul in her eyes when she tells him
her life
and her bed
shes been sharing with another
and she cant stand 2 go on lying 2 him

~ by abnegation on May 14, 2008.